Last week of the first trimester

Today I am 13 weeks, just one week away from starting the second trimester.  I can’t believe I’ve made it this far. I never actually believed I’d be pregnant.  I am still incredibly nervous and panic about something daily but in between, I am grateful that I have reached this point.

Last week we had our NT scan at 11 weeks 6 days and everything looked great, baby was even measuring a day ahead.  Unfortunately they were not able to give me the results from my bloodwork as I inadvertently had it done too early. I chose not to repeat the lab work however, as I felt comfortable with the results of the NT scan plus knowing the embryo was PGS tested.

In the past week we shared the news with our parents and siblings. I am not yet ready to openly share with the world, and am definitely not the type of person to do some cheesy social media announcement (maybe its 3 years of infertility – I really hate those). But it was nice to let our immediate families in on this secret.  Having been in the know about the long journey to get to this point, they were thrilled and there were lots of tears. Some family members don’t quite understand my anxiety and are ready to move full steam ahead with planning/buying/talking about the future which makes me uneasy.  But I’m sure we’ll all learn to navigate it.

I’ve been too nervous to really buy any pregnancy related items or take weekly pictures, but thought I might enjoy documenting some of my pregnancy here.

How far along? 13 weeks

How big is baby? From what I’ve read, about 3″ long and just under 1 oz.

Total weight gain/loss:  3 lbs, all in the past week – oops.

Maternity clothes?  No – too early! In the past week I’ve had to use a hair elastic to close my pants.  They still button, but its a bit tight.

Sleep: I’m in bed at 8pm every night but able to stay up past 9:00 here and there as a little bit of energy returns.  I am having ridiculously weird dreams almost every night.

Best moment this week: Sharing the news with our parents and siblings.

Food cravings:  ….Everything! And none of it healthy. My appetite is still out of control and all I seem to want is junk food.

Food Aversions: Not many, but still no interest in coffee.

Pregnancy Symptoms:  Emotional. I’ve been watching sappy movies I never had interest in before, and what’s more, crying at them. Had a meltdown the other day because it’s too hot outside. Still tired, and very very hungry.  Some headaches here and there.

What I miss:  Turkey sandwiches.

What I am looking forward to:  It’s hard to answer this because I feel too superstitious and anxious to say that I am looking forward to any future pregnancy milestones because I don’t have the confidence I wish I did that I’ll make it that far.

Upcoming appointments/events:  I go every Tuesday to my OB’s office for a quick appointment to listen to the heartbeat on the Doppler.  They have been very kind and accomodating of my anxiety.

Milestones: Starting to share the news.