Today I am 24 weeks pregnant which marks the official start of viability for my baby. This is a day I have been waiting for, for a long time. I am not naive enough to believe that I could give birth tomorrow and be guaranteed a perfect healthy baby. Realistically I know the statistics of survival are about 50/50 at this point. However, I no longer feel like I am out in open water by myself. If god forbid something happens from here out, doctors will now take measures to keep me pregnant and save my baby and that in itself gives me great comfort.
I am breaking down pregnancy into milestones, obviously the first was this big one at 24 weeks. The next milestone I am counting down to is 28 weeks. This will help me feel like getting towards the end really is achievable, and that I can get there. There are a million worries that are starting to set in but for this moment I am trying to enjoy this day.
My pregnancy is reaching the point where I feel like I need to start getting some things done to prepare. I took a leap of faith last weekend and ordered the nursery furniture. And since I am mentally feeling good today, we are going to start our registry. I do not intend to have a baby shower, but I know our parents will appreciate having a registry to work off of as they are hoping to purchase a few gifts.
When I tell people I don’t want a shower, they act like I am crazy, and I have a hard time explaining to them why I don’t want one. I guess there are a few reasons. One, it feels like I am jinxing things in some way. The thought of celebrating a baby that still has to make it here safely gives me anxiety. Two, through three years of infertility, baby showers caused me a great deal of pain. I never know who else might be silently suffering and I would hate to inadvertently impart that pain on anyone else.
As for the road ahead – I have a growth scan in 4 weeks, then I will have appointments every 2-4 weeks after that. I can’t believe I am a few weeks away from the 3rd trimester. In many ways this pregnancy has crawled by, but at the same time it feels like it has flown too.