At 27 weeks + 5 days today, I am, for all intents and purposes, in the 3rd trimester. I can’t believe it. For 3 years I dreamed of what it would be like to enjoy the holiday season, my favorite time of year, full of hope with a big round belly. It is surreal that this is actually happening. Just one year ago, I sat home with my husband on Christmas Eve and watched movies because family celebrations were too painful. Two years ago, I ran out of church crying because I was overwhelmed with fear, loss and emotion.
I was overcome with hope and happiness in the waiting room of my OB this morning, as I looked around at the Christmas decorations and heard the holiday music playing, and realized that I am living what I have dreamed of for years – Being happy, healthy and pregnant during this special time of year.
I am not without any fears or cares – Typing this still gives me anxiety, as the thought creeps into my mind – Christmas is still 4 weeks away, anything can happen between now and then. But today I am trying to focus on the positive and keep the worries at bay as much as I can. I had my first growth scan today and all looked perfect. Baby is estimated at 2lb 10 oz today and in the 50th percentile. Right on track! I was shocked and disappointed to face the fact that I have gained 35 pounds so far, but knowing my baby is healthy makes it worth it. Plus I found out that I passed my 1 hour glucose test, so I know to some degree my health is not in danger.
I did learn that the baby is breech as of right now, but the midwife said there is plenty of time for that to change. I am going to try not to worry about it right now and see what happens at my next scan. I found out today that I’ll be getting ultrasounds every 4 weeks due to my mild hypothyroidism. Now that I am in my last trimester, I am being seen every 2 weeks total, which is great.
I felt good enough after today’s appointment to start ordering some things for the baby. I chose and ordered a diaper bag, along with a few other items. I am sure my anxiety will ramp back up in the next few days but for today I am enjoying feeling hopeful and happy.